There are three things you need to know when it comes to the writing process:
1. Don’t expect to all of a sudden have a sudden burst of words come flooding to your brain; these things take lots of time and thinking, don’t pressure yourself or feel bad about your writer’s block.
2. You won’t get it all right on the first go. Drafts can take many months and many tries, take your time to perfect your craft and masterpiece.
3. Not everyone will come flooding to your work, but when you finally find your audience, they will remember what you have to say.
Do I expect you to follow my advice? I would hope so. Am I a successful writer with a huge following? No, not yet. But I know I have to keep trying, and that’s why I’m writing this. Not only so that others can take this advice for themselves, but to remind myself as well. I forget, so I have to keep repeating this process until I get there.
When I say that I am going to try and do better, a part of me laughs and thinks, "No you won't". It's hard to accept the responsibility, the negatives that come with being lazy, but it's hard to push yourself to do better when many are expecting you to fail, regardless of how hard you try.
I'm young, and I have dreams. I have responsibilites and outcomes that are expected of me, but I am also afraid of what would happen if I decided to be "me" and not the one that others are waiting for me to become.
I have school, someone who loves me, I have my words and the possibility of a beautiful future. But what if I don't like how my life starts to unfold; I won't lie, it is a small and harrowing fear.
I want to be happy and make sure that those around me are happy, but it seems difficult making sure everyone will be. Just people can't dictate my decision-making, I understand that I can't guarantee anyone's satisfaction in the end.
It is super tough to keep up with school and all my other tasks that I have to get done throughout the day and I know I’m definitely not the only one. I know that there are many who have full-time jobs, families and all their other side ventures that they just have to make time for.
So I know that I have no excuse for not being able to keep up with my blog.
So here I am today, kind of late, I'm aware, but I will do my best to post daily from now on.
For today I have a small poem that I wrote earlier, so here we go:
There is too much misfortune today.
On the news, social media, word of mouth;
Pain is just always on display,
Everything always seems to go south.
I’m sick of the disasters,
Listening to people who can’t get along;
It seems that we’ll never escape these long chapters,
I worry at times that I’ll lose the passion to pursue putting out my poetry. I know that ‘ll never stop writing, but that’s what I had been doing for a long time; writing in a notebook and never bothering to share it.
I’ve done the basics; posting some poetry on Instagram, submitting poems on the New Yorker and the Sun, and even deciding to sell some of my poetry on frames like the one you’ll see below:
But I’m not fulfilled yet when it comes to the impact my writing has had on others.
I want to make sure that I’ve done everything I could; publish poetry books, get accepted by bigger magazines and people’s excitement and admiration when they read what I’ve put out.
It may seem vain, and I won’t deny that it is, but how will I know I’m a good poet, unless others give a sign of approval?
I’ve come to know something about myself: I thoroughly enjoy writing with all my heart, but I can’t really come to terms with having to engage in conversations with others face to face. A part of me thinks its the fear of coming off as a boring or disintersting person. Another is running out of things to say. But my biggest one is that I haven’t really found my crowd. Sure, I can be civil enough to ask the basic questions; “How’s your family?”, “What have you been up to lately?”, “Has it been that long?”.
But those aren’t real conversations.
We can lie, leave certain details out or just not like that person that we’re talking to. I’ll be honest, I’ve had to sitdown and pretend to be interested in what the other person is saying lots of times. And its not a fun position to be in. I get it, we have to have these moments sometimes, its a part of life.
But do I really?
The point of having conversations is to say what needs to be said, to learn and build off of one another and to get to know the person that we’re talking to.
And this is where I talk about why I love writing.
Look, I get it, reading can be boring for some people, but don’t you love the idea of how if you don’t like what you’re reading, you can just stop? Whereas if you don’t like what someone is saying, you’re kind of stuck until you can find a time to excuse yourself and jam.
When I write, I have the liberty to express myself without the fear of judgement. I just got to make sure that what I’m writing will be able to capture the attention of my reader. Kind of like how I hope you are engaging and understanding what it is that I’m communicating to you through these words.
This is why so many people find themselves lost in books. Somehow and in someway the author was able to captivate their audience and hook the reader into reading what they have to say. Something that can’t always be captured in a conversation. The beauty and the mystery of it can get lost when simply telling someone a story out loud.
My ability to communicate much better through words can have something to do with how I am more of an introvert and would prefer not to have to talk with others as well, but I like to believe that I am able to say what I want better through pen and paper. I love the liberty of sitting alone with my thoughts and getting out what’s on my mind without the awkward eye contact and worry of not making sense.
the Literary Poetess
Why a Blog?
Hello fellow readers,
You’re probably wondering what this blog is about, and honestly, so am I. A little about me, first, I’m a 21 year old writer who is currently a Cal State Dominguez Hills student majoring in English education to teach at the high school level. I have a passion for writing and try to focus mainly on poetry. I’m currently working on a poetry book/chapbook, and I’m submitting some of my more established pieces on editorials such the New Yorker, POETRY and the Sun Magazine, though I know how difficult it is to get published.
The point is I love to write, I just don’t know how to get my work out there or be recognized as a serious poet.
This is why I’ve started this blog, to get the word about my poetry. To try to attract any fellow readers about my passion and to see if I can even build a reputable following.
This is an overwhelming process as I am not sure if any of you will consider my poetry to be as great as I believe it to be, but I don’t want to sit around wondering if I’m any good.
And so, this is the beginning of my writing journey, where I will not only be sharing some of my work, but also my progress, my diffiiculties and any other thought that just so happens to pop into my mind.
I will leave you all to begin working on how to better establish this site, and wish you all an enjoyable afternoon or time you find yourself in while reading this.